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Self Doubt

30 Jan 2016   Shanti Gowans
Do you ever feel that no matter how hard you try, something keeps getting in your way and stopping you from truly breaking through? You know, the sick feeling of never quite doing, or being enough, and the exhaustion that comes from working yourself up, trying to get to a destination that keeps eluding you... Do you ever wish you just knew the cause behind the symptoms? If you could at least face your enemy, it'd be much easier to fight it...

Your greatest enemy is not found in your circumstances, limitations, other people's opinions of you, your failed dreams and expectations, your apparent impossibilities, or any other 'obvious' reason outside of You.

It's easy to point fingers at all the broken pieces, at everything that isn't working in your life. But this is a massive waste of your creative energy nd heart investments. Blaming your outer world is a distraction that keeps you from what's really happening inside. 

Your greatest enemy lives within you, and it is slowly eating you alive, like an unwelcome parasite.

if you entertain self-doubt, you are on your dead-end road.
 
Self-doubt is the greatest threat to your creative evolution. It operates on the belief that you are never quite enough, that there is always more you could be, do, have...  Similar to Perfectionism, self-doubt keeps you from doing what you can with what you have, right here and now. The Liar in your head makes you believe your limitations are the reason why you 'can't' follow your desire (in any area your heart is calling you). 

At the same time as it feeds off your feelings of scarcity, not-enoughness and inadequacy, self-doubt produces more fear and lack of trust: the famous "Who am I to..." 

It's a perpetual insanity, a gradual soul annihilation. You must escape this trap. 

Entertain Creativity 

Creativity will always ask you to jump. Because it knows it can catch you. In order to create a new reality, you must get used to leaping in the dark (or as I call it, the beautiful unknown).  

Self-Doubt on the other hand, will always try to hold you back, because it fears you may fall. You move between the two on a daily basis, from your smallest to your greatest decisions. 

But here's the thing, if you weren't ready, if you weren't enough, you wouldn't feel the desire to push through your comfort zone. 

As Ralph Waldo Emerson put it,

"There’s nothing capricious in nature, and the implanting of a desire indicates that its gratification is in the constitution of the creature that feels it.”

Your desire is your compass. It points you North. 

Your higher self will never invite you on a mission, quest or experience you can't handle. You would simply not feel a desire to expand in one or more areas of you, if you weren't both, ready and equipped with the power to handle it.

However, trusting yourself is not about blindly following your heart without first getting to know it. 

Trusting your self ultimately means trusting that your Higher Self, the Universe, your God, whatever names your spirit bears, is conspiring with you (not against you), to help you create the life you feel called to embody. 

Your existence is not random. If you are here, it means there was a universal demand for you. 

So Trust

Trust that there is a greater story at play, a cosmic script, a serendipity of which you are a part. Take every opportunity life throws your way as chance to evolve and expand. 

Take every failure as a lessonEach moment as a gift. Recycle everything that happens to you into new reasons to push through. Use the whole of life to benefit your sacred purpose, and it will, in turn, benefit others. 

That's the beautiful thing about following your call, even despite your fear - that whatever you do, in truth, for yourself, will automatically become an act of freedom and empowerment to others.

We are all interconnected. My home, if I embody it, will help you find and be your home. 

So how do you get rid of your Self-Doubt? 

You don't. Like fear, your self-doubt is a healthy response to an uncertain situation. You learn to use it to your benefit. To master it. To dance with it. To do the things you doubt and fear, anyway. 

You master Self-Doubt by first acknowledging it, and then getting good at disagreeing with it and rebelling against it every day. 

By fighting for your heart with creativity, until you finally believe that you were meant for more.

And then you act on this belief, just like you brush your teeth, every single day.  

Practice, practice, and practice. Practice and all comes together.
 

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Shanti Gowans is the globally recognised author and founder of Shanti Yoga™, Meditation and Ayurveda for the self, family and community.

Shantiji has brought the concepts and practices of a healthy body and a still mind to thousands of Australians through her Yoga and Meditation programs on national television... Read more about Shantiji's biography


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